One of the most important people in my life. Everyday, we go through things. It’s not the same everyday. We may yell at each other, for no apperent reason. But we love each other.

In the next month, my mom will go through surgery. She tells me and my manong(Brother) that if her recovery isn’t succesful, she’s wants us to keep going in our studies.

I hate it when she says that. It makes me feel like a little part of me dies everytime she says that. Becuase if anything happens to her, I will be lost. I can’t run to my dad because he won’t understand. He doesn’t care that much about my mom. I might not run to my brother. I might hide my feelings with him. I may just run to my Best Friend. My Auntie Dakila. My manang Micah&Maria.

She’s my everything. My brother and I are her everything, if anything happens to us, a big part in her heart will die.

She gave birth to me when she was 40. They said that it was either my mom or me that will die. She told the doctor to save me, if anything me. My mom is alive. She’s still by my side. I have this picture(s) with my mom holding me. With my brother holding me. I stare at those pictures and wonder if my mom wasn’t there. I wouldn’t know where my brother and I would be. If anything, horible. Becuase my dad is the worse. He takes everything on his kids and wife. I want to slap him sometimes. Make him realize everything.

IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO MY MOM. I will make my brother take custody of me. I don’t want to stay with my dad. I want to leave him. And if not my brother, my Auntie Dakila.

But everything will be ohk. God’s making sure.